Jake... and our not so little problem.

Okay, so we have all had crushes, haven't we? Yes we have, stop lying. Your dad wont see you nodding.

I tend to like a lot of guys I meet through youtube or twitter.... including Dan and Phil, but I'm talking about the smaller youtubers. I recently discovered a guy called Jake. He looks SCARILY like Phil. I'm not kidding.

I can't find any pics of him... darn it. But he is SO nice and friendly and gorgeous and perfect  -U-

But there is something about him that really upset me. He self harms. I'm not the person to criticize  but it makes me so angry. How could something be so bad that he hurts himself? He doesn't deserve it. From what I've seen, he hasn't done anything to anyone, loads of people I know always compliment him, and yet his arms are covered in cuts. I have cut for about a year and a half, and I know that it's the last option. A myth about cutting is that it means you are attempting suicide. That isn't true.

My friend Emma feels the same way about me, but I fail to understand WHAT could drive Jake to that.

He has a girlfriend, and I'm actually disappointed that she hasn't done anything about it. From experience, I know that when people tell you to stop, you want to do it more. But she should be there to talk to him, instead of  letting him get away with it.

I'm sorry, this was a bit of a rant-y post, but that really hit home. I love you guys, and DON'T EVER make the mistake Jake and I did. It's like a drug. You get a temporary high, and don't notice the pain until you see how bad the damage is.

RIP Amanda Todd.